Never really had the time to think things through for the past uhm... 2 years of my life. Been to busy with school work. Busy cramming, to be more specific. Cram. Cram. Cram. The moment I heard the song, familiar scenes popped into my head.

Moments when I was still in high school. When I used to spend my weekdays with four fantastic freaks who knew me better than anyone else: KJ, Cielo, Tine and Mia. When I always come in late for my first class with my hair never cooperating (but no one would really care about that). When I came home to my relatives in Balara and be greeted by my playmates Andrea and Totoy. When I watched teleseryes late at night with Tita Jenny, Tita Binay, Tito Jhun, Tito Jeff, Lola Titing and Lolo G. When I stayed up late talking to Jc over the phone. When I came home late because training was so intense. When I woke up and my body ached so much because of training. Moments when I was always thinking positive, smiling and making people smile, joking around, making people laugh and funny faces. Singing like no one was hearing me. Laughing like hell as if my life depended on it.

And I couldn't help but stare at nothingness and let me lose myself. For a moment there I thought my eyes were going to shed tears. I never really thought I'd morph into this laid-back, moody, bossy, ungrateful, frank, insensitive and serious (yes, I am serious at times) person. I guess people do eventually have to let go of the childish attitude they once had. But that isn't really a bad thing. Childish behavior and attitude, let go of it. But it wouldn't hurt if, once in a while, people would get in touch with their childhood/teenage memories and just relax.

Right now, I dont' know ME at all.
And I don't know KJ at all. (Ano na nangyari sa kanila ni Ian? Kumusta pamilya niya?)
I don't know Cielo at all. (Kumusta na ang pagiging nurse? CJ? Missy? Pamilya?)
I don't know Tine at all. (Wala na ako balita sa'yo Tine. WALA. :| )
I don't know them at all.

Since college started I never really had enough time for my family, my friends and myself. Everything was about getting good grades, meeting requirements, deadline after deadline. Thank God for sembreaks! Now I have time to spend knowing my friends once more. And to know myself again.

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Pero kahit na sabog ako for the past days(months, years?) salamat at lab pa din ako ni Papa, Mama, Cathy at Crissy. Tenkyu tenkyu Familia Arellano. Salamat din kay Ot at Cielo sa pagtetext at pag-alala sa akin. Ganito lang kasi yan. Love-able naman kasi talaga ako. Paminsan lang hindi.